One star out of million stones.

These are the most beautifull beaches i’ve ever visited by order of Quality:
1. Lombok, Gili Trawangan
2. Phuket, PhiPhi Island and Khai Nok
3. Bali, Kuta

And water Activity by order of Quality:
1. Snorkelling (not enough guts to Dive YET)
2. Parasailing (dont have the chance Yet Though)
3. Body surf
4. Banana Boat.
5. Swimming in the pool.. (this should come to the last, i just cant remember what should come after No.4 hea hea.. )

of course, it wouldnt be as much fun without the-same-interest activity friend. Guys, U are the coolest:)
I got Tanned.. Cool.. Sexy.. (for awhile, hehe).

Vietnam is Next… InsyaAllah.

-Ntan-

i remembered on new year’s eve LY,

i wished for a new life… sekarang gw di sing.. semua serba baru..
kerjaan baru, lingkungan baru, gaji baru, rumah baru, keluarga baru (housemates), rutinitas baru, dll dll…
duhh rupanya saat itu Allah masih denger suara hati gw…
sekarang mestinya semua yang gw minta ini bisa makin mendekatkan padaNya, but look at me…
kecewa deh… :(( ibadahnya makin kedor:((
lebih berat sama kerjaan ato tidurrr… ini cobaan dalam bentuk yang baik.. padahal Allah bisa kasih peringatan lebih kejam:(
apa saat ini Allah masih mau denger my little voices ya??? semoga gw belom bikin Dia marah dan menjauh…

mgkn dengan disiplin ibadah penyakit pelupa gw bisa ilang kali ya? parah neh…

cin, pengen puasa bareng kamu lg deh… eh eh, aku naik 5 kilo aja lhoo selama 3 bulannnn….hihihi.. appreciation terlalu besar gini sama makanan..

bobo achh.. sleepy sekaleee…
-Ntan-

Pushing me out, pull me back in…
pushing me out, pull me back in again, …
kicking me out, wanting me in again…

dont you know? that this toy you are playing at, Does have a heart…
Still have a heart…You’ll break it eventually by doing so..
and if you have one also,.. please make up your mind and decide where you want this toy to be in your life..

capek jalan-jalan, … pengen cari tempat berhenti.
dimana gw bisa berenti yah? places that i visited were … gitulah…

last one i had, was great (at least i thought it was great), fancy, clean, tidy, terang, dll… sempet ngendon bbrp lama… cukup lama… menghabiskan 20% dari umur gw. mgkn stay terlalu lama, penduduk makin padat, depresiasi makin besar, … umur tempat tinggal udah gak muda lagi… tiba2 jadi banyak nyamuknya… beserta binatang2 yang nggigitin dan ngisap darah.. sakittt… diobatin kayak apa jg gak ilang2… cuma ilang sementara… nyaman… eh serangga2 itu dateng lagi.. malah semakin lama semakin ganas dan ngabisin gak cuma darah.. tp hati. nguras semua tenaga, perhatian, dan perasaan… hhhh… capek deh.

ditinggalin aja barangkali keputusan paling baik,… keliatannya butuh usaha yang BESAR buat nge-rebuilt tempat itu lagi. gak kuat sendiri… tangan gw kan cuma dua… gak ada yang mau bantuin… tempat itu jg kliatannya udah bosen gw tinggali. keep falling down no matter how much i fixed it. mgkn bukan tempat gw …

jalan2 lagi dehhhh, nyari tempat yang bisa dibuat berteduh… hari udah makin mendung.. mau ujan kali yah.. emang udah musimnya sih… close to august. thailand aja udah ujan setiap hari. mgkn indo jg… singapore masih keitung 4 hari seminggu lah…
mmm menetap dimana kali ini ? gw gak pengen sekedar singgah… pengen menetap selamanya.

dimana tempat buat gw tinggal ya? yang kecil, sederhana, indah, terang, dan tertata rapi dengan dekorasi yang sederhana.
barangkali persinggahan dikota berikutnya ada tempat buat gw menetap selamanya.. semoga:)

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ARtinya : sayang sama seseorang,… tapi kok????

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ARtinya : kalo dia sayang jg mo diapain? gak ngaruh. (masa sih?? kata2 khas gw nih)

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aRTINYA: KALO Orangnya gak sayang balik.. gak boleh marah…:( *iya deeeehhh*

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ARtinya : ginian aja kok diurusin..hehehe… ngantuk.. bobo achhh

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artinya: Kangen sama temen2ku dijakarta…. durhaka! gak pengen ketemu bonyok ya??????? kok malah temen duluan? ck ck ck….  (lho kok panjangan artinya??)

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ARtinya: Kangen MT3 ku tercinta.. palagi peserta Dufan… I love you all SO MUCH… miss me jg kan?????:D:D rangkulan yuuuukkkk….:P:P

ramona, jarul, ety darlingku, cinta, aniii,tenny, ita, Zi centil:*, Dewo, Umira,Husniii, BAbe?? (tak usah yah:P hiahhaa), aCiiiilll..mm iya lupa ada pacarnya ita, basssss gak lupa kok.. cuma emang paling gede kan barisnya mesti dibelakang:P …miss u all…eeeggghhhhh.. kangen bangetttt

oiya, kangen satu lagi… Pookkkyyyyyy…. kuannnngggeeennnn… pengen kencan lagi berdua.. mau gak?? so much to tell you nehhhh… lets do the single out night again with lala… hehehe..

duh, pengen teriak nih.. kangen100x… meluk dengkul aja deh kayak melly:( hiks

-Intan-

A dear friend of mine just wrote :

hmmm… i’ve been
inspired also by the book when it said bahwa kita harus fight against
everything untuk mendapatkan impian kita karena bukan hanya kita saja
dalam kehidupan ini yang harus memilih (bukankah hidup itu memang
pilihan?), tapi Allah pun juga harus memilih berdasarkan segala
perbuatan kita.. so,believe it or not, untuk memperjuangkan impian, kita
bahkan harus berani fight against Allah… kita harus berani dan bisa
meyakinkan Allah bahwa apa yang kita inginkan adalah yang terbaik untuk
kita, yang pada akhirnya Allah akan merestui apa yang kita pilih, dan
pilihan kita bukan ditentukan oleh Nya.. (illustrated in yakub’s battle
against Allah)
that’s sound fair enough, eh?

And i have faith on it also:) always.

as, again, one of my other friends would write "I am the master of my own destiny"…

be Grateful that Allah gives us the chance to make our own decisions for our life.. and be gratefull that He will never leave us alone taking the consequences of the decisions. Just as long as you fight, and doing the right thing.. then, InsyaAllah, U’re in the right path.

-Intan-

salsa kali ini rada beda…
went there with confidence without calling anyone else to join.

maybe because i know the spot already.. Xenbar is small club in chinatown. located in pagoda street not too far from Chinatown MRT station. just one floor before my salsa classroom.
thought it would be VERY crowded, turned out to be crowd:D

i find it a bit different from other salsa night, because ALL of them were my friends. classmates and other classes from the same school. i got the chance to know more of friends from the same school… interesting. i met a lot of new people… not just met, but to know each other better.

they are all fun to be with… fun singaporean.. finally i can find singaporean that i can feel comfortable to hang around with..
i danced almost ALL night… got myself SWEAT. paid off by having more and more new friends… not to mention, flatter tummies:P hiehehe…

PC dropped me home this time.. thanks PC. So, you are considered as the first singaporean who dropped me home hahaha… congrats.. hihihi… laen kali lagi yah:P:P
mayan irit ongkos taksi.. hehehe.. S$10 dolar hehhee…*dasar loe tan* — *BOkek sih.. gimana dong:(*

Ntan.
Not to only survive.. but to be alive.
01.05 AM

watched Fantastic 4 today… not as remarkable as Batman begin to me. This one is nice to see, and quite amusing. But not enough to bring me back for the second time.

the movie effect, the imagination that the writer put in the characters, such as the power,the humor, and i believe all other movie making points are fine.. but somehow.. i felt the story is a bit shallow. nothing to memorize about.. its just an ORDINARY heroic story..that anyone could have guessed how it will flow and how it will end. less thrilling..

i like Batman begin better. the emotion of the character is more attached, deep, and spoken.

but guys, this is only personal opinion … hehe.. u may find it differently. good for u if so.. at least you will feel worth to spend S$9,5 for a movie:P

anyways, this cant ruin my weekend..its lovely to watch movie -whatever that is- on weekend.:)
the only thing that ruin my weekend is the thought of goin back to work in the day after… :((

hh.. NASIB!!
Ntan.
12.46 AM

GW bener2 bokek booo:(((((

hikss…. money2 where r u goin? what r u doing in anyone else’s pocket???

-yang tak berkutik-

sebenernya apa sih tujuan blogger ini?

sharing your pseonal life to the world? i have no idea why people can disclose their personal feeling in this blog, read by so many people. not to mention those who are the object of the conversation. if its bad, dont you think it will hurt that person?

maybe its just a matter of jealousy, hehhee.. i really cant write and tell personal feeling so good. or maybe i am too embarassed.

well, really wanted to try once, but accidentally it was deleted by the conection failure. hehhe…

i read something good in a book. it said that someone can have a real soulmate in their life. he/she is part of you, part of your soul, part of ur heart. the one that you cant take your heart away from. the one that really makes you happy, no matter how much he/she makes you sad or hurt you. and when you meet her/him, u really wont care about her/his past, u wont even care whether or not she/he has a name. u’ll feel that both of u are one. and when the other gone, would feel as if there’s only half of you stayin. u’ll love her/him more than you love anything else before. u’ll dedicate and give your heart completely to her/him, put your trust entirely, etc etc. and when she/he make something bad according to other people, you would still have the faith and understand that she/he have reason to do so.. good reason. most importantly, at the time you meet her/him, being with her/him, u’ll realize that all of the time you spent by yourself was so alone…

life is crazy, that it never guarantees people to find their soulmate, or even worse, you found it but u cannot have it!!

inside every human being, must lie fear of never finding the right person for their life. but only few questioning whether they are the right person for someone else’s. being selfish is so human, but when u have partner, u are oblied to let it go as much as you can. can u do that? if not, then u are not the right person for her/him.

i met someone from my past last week. so happy that i can find him again after a while. in times when i dont expect most.

this is the time when i feel give up to life, i’ll just let it bring me to wherever i should be. and keep the faith to the Lord. and praying that there’ll be someone of my dream coming to my entire life as i will to him. my fighter. my piece of me.

everything about MY life now is complete.. i have everything i need. Only a piece of me that is missing. my job is going better and better. i have a smart boss, that always teach me to be smarter and smarter. patiently explaining things to me over and over.. hehehe *i hate to be forgetful person*

from today going forward, he officially handed me one of his important analyzing job. i dont know if i can do it as good as he did, but i know i will try my best to at least having minimum points of mistakes. one year from now, i’ll be as smart as i should be.

i have scholarship form in front of me. REALLY anxious to apply. really hope i got the chance to have master degree. but i have several things in mind that might stall me from applying. still need more info for the schedule and requirement times to attend. but again.. i remember that i have "responsibility" behind me. may not be able to help them any more if incase i have the offer. BUT that would be too far, too confident if i may say hehhee…

lets just try first yah Tan, and we’ll see how LIFE will bring you in.

sebenernya pengennya S2 pas udah punya suami.. jadi bisa sekolah sambil ngurus keluarga kecilku. but well,… luck is having other people to visit i guess. one day it will knock my door:P

INTAN